fear

shattered,

idk

i dont know why are you acting like this.

i dont dare to talk to you for fear i might say the wrong things.

but you dont even want to take a look at me.

even the tone you use to teach me now. its different.

different.

why are you like that?

i really miss the times we were together holding hands, laughing and talking about our future.

i dont know why

the first thing when i saw you coming in the room, i wanted to run towards you and hug you.

but the look on your face tells me, no. -stay-away-.

i feel so scared.

crying doesnt help in anyway.

its like glass shattering and never will be able to get mended.

i really want things to be like how things were as before.

happy for now.

Twins birthday was awesome!

HAPPY 18TH SWEETIESSSS =D

we all love youuuuuuu boooooothhh =))

i hope you had a awesome 18th darlings!

i love youuuuuuu both :)

Hello missy tan!

hello mirror =D
ahhhhh. love love l-o-v-e you people!

<3333

AC BAND BBQ!

hi! =D

it was hmmmm. fun ah..

but i didnt manage to take many many photos. =(

oh wellszxzxz.

its been 2 days.. =(

ilummdd.

=(

i want to smile like i did in secondary school days .

haisssss.
i feel so bored =(


there are SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO many things i want to do .. =(
not in order though.
1) Sentosa
2) badminton
3) bball
4) shopping for new clothes
5) swimming
6) party with my friends
7) meet up with friends to chill
8) Moviesss marathon
9) night cycling
10)chalet
11)stayover at friends' place
12) BBQ
13) picnic
14) travelling around to eat good food
15) go ikea to window shop and eat hotdog
16)buy gifts! where's the moneyyyy! =(
18) science centre
19) botanic gdns!
20) night safari
21) make breakfast with dearest <3
22) chill with my baby (:

i love my darling (:
he's playing mahjong and ignoring me again =(


can $$$$$ drop down from the sky or something pleaseeeee?=(



OH OH OH .
AND
I CANT WAIT FOR
TWINS BIG 18TH THIS FRI (: , stayover & chill1!! (:
and and and
LILING'S WEDDING
plusplusplus
JEREMYLIM AND LYNETTE WEDDING!! (the wedding horn quartet)
OH PLUS PLUS PLUS
SHIHHAN'S BIG 18th on 25th!!
ANDDDDDDDDD CHRISTMAS + NEWYR!!!! omg
so egggggciting (:
teeeheee. but that's all only gonna happen in dec =(
can time hurry pass please? r4



i cant wait for christmas,
knowing you've got something in mind to do for me (:
but i dont know what to do ..
maybe i should start thinking .. =)

(:

i must be crazy to be mad about every single thing last night. =(




linda is really really a blessed girl (:
she's loved by everyone <3
she has a happy family :D
many many many good friends (:


i love you baby! =D
thank you for loving me with all your heart too <3

teeheee. speak of the devil.
play mj must win more $$ okay =D

Linda is feeling sick,
she didnt go to school tonight to practice horn.
in fact, she wasted one whole day =(
haissss.
ellise came over and we talk cock a bit.
hahahahhaas. (:
i love her!

-g-u-y-s- no, i mean, jerks.

"all guys are the same,
i just havent met the perfect one,
once you've jio-ed her, you push her aside."
-from jo's blog.




well. i must say that its kinda true.
its been 5 days.
i know exams are important.
but are they so important that you dont reply my texts?
the problem is i dont even know about your whereabouts/how you're doing.
yet my bestest knows everything.
i dont even get an offline message from you;
how sad is that.
its like totally no communication between us.


though i know you love me deep from the bottom of your heart,
how sweet and all..
but you should at least talk to me, or let me know how you are?
i dont wanna make a big fuss and all about this thing cause i know exams are very important to you.
you may be thinking why i didnt bother calling you
thats cause i wanted you to concentrate and focus on your exams, knowing you cant multitask.








i want to shout out:
ARE YOU STUPID OR JUST PLAIN DUMB?!?!?!?
MY BROTHER IS SUCH A PAIN IN AN ASS. HE THINKS HE'S TOO GOOD OR SMTH.
HE JUST LOST SUCH A BEAUTIFUL GIRLFRIEND.
GUYS WHO CHEATS ON GIRLS SHOULD JUST GO AND DIE. THANKS.


you think you're so frigging smart?
please get out of the house,
i want to see how you're gonna survive on your own, idiot.
cheryl is such a nice and thoughtful girl,
you are such a jerk, you dont deserve her you idiot.
got another girl outside?
hur. i bet she cant last. you HOPELESS FREAK.




you know whats the saddest thing? oh wait. maybe im not that sad afterall.
i dont even know whats in my memory for such a sibling.
so useless and hopeless.
cant even do anything to save his own ass.






no more kiki,
no more random talks
no more make up
=(

i missssssss you=(
its been 2 days;
oh well
i hope your exams go well =)


school's out for the first semester! YOOOHOO. its party + prac on my own time!!
well. laoshi just called while i was napping.
PS tmr @ yst!
hmmmm.
i hope im prepared for his lesson. =X


The weathers' been ~~~~
its freezing me.. and i wished i could just hug you.
im like so afraid that i'll fall sick and all=(


it was so good to see my juniors and fellow alumnis again =D
i love amandeeee <333
i love jessica <333
i love the horns <333

RECENTLY.....

i love you <3

sad.

sometimes..
i feel that when you talk to others..
you're happier.


in short,
you're happier without me.



i dont know why i feel this way,
maybe its because the way you talk to me,
and to others.




sorry for everything,
perhaps you'll never ever see all these,
but i must still say i love you.
for being such a wonderful capable person
whom everyone needs.


whats so nice quarrelling over such stuff?
it just makes everybody feel like shit.



what left me heartbroken and sad was when you said you might leave.


Horoscope from the facebook:

"Your Love Horoscope
Recovery is the name of the love game today, Libra. If you have been working on some painful issues, you can expect these to blow over by the day's end. If you are attached, you may even find someone seeking forgiveness for a grudge that you have been holding in. Single? Do not be surprised if someone from your past makes an appearance and is looking to re-connect. Do not jump to conclusions here, it is possible for people to change and this may well be just the transformation you have been looking for. A bumpy ride is expected today, but you will find yourself smiling by days end."


true enough, it was a bumpy ride. and hopefully everything will be fine.



good night sweets.
xoxo

Linda is feeling blessed. =)
gees.


PS exam on monday, hehhe.
i hope everything goes alright! =D


i've prolly been too tired from all the -not-enough-sleep- thing,
and i cant focus on playing horn.
thatsssssss .. BAD.


ANWs.
conCORdis quartet performing on 18.11.09 @ band world !
=D







i love you =D heheh.
gambatteeeeeeeee for everything =)

to love or to hate.

"Someday, someone is going to walk into your life and make you realize why it never worked out with anyone else."

saw this in someone's blog
i think it really makes a lot of sense, and makes me think a lot right nao.

i dont know if he's the one.....
he's awesome for nao.
the one who knows what i like/dislike,
knows when im sad
knows how to take the initiative.
knows how to teach me stuff
the one who loves me.

what would actually have happened if i already said yes on that day?
would all these thoughts have come into his mind?
i considered every single thing carefully, ......................

nevermind. i love you still.=)